I fail on the daily. I pray for patience and then I lose my ish. I pray for guidance and to let go and let God, but then I try to control things. I pray for peace in my heart, but I let the little things get to me.
I know I’m not perfect. I don’t strive to be. But I also know that I fall short, every single day. It is the burden of being human. We are not perfect beings and never will be. We may strive to be more like Jesus every day, but we will never be able to attain it.
And I’ll be honest. I used to think this made me not good enough. That I wasn’t good enough to say I was a Christian or believed in God. That because I fell short every day, because I messed up every day, that I wasn’t good enough for His love.
I know now that isn’t true. He loves me IN SPITE of these things. He loves me, imperfections and all. And yes, I pray and confess my sins daily. I know I need His help with it, every single day.
I say all this because I know I’m not the only one who struggles with this. And starting in January, Nick and I will be working with Love Remained Ministries and River Oak Church on a program called Re:Generation. It scares the bejesus out of me, because I know I will be laid bare. I know I have so many struggles that I need to work through and let go of. I pray this 9 month pilot program helps me to truly let go of the things holding me back.
I’ve always wanted to be a part of a program like this, but didn’t know where to start. And truthfully, I didn’t make finding out a priority. Whenever an opportunity would come up, I would find excuse after excuse to not do it.
And I don’t know how to explain it, but I feel drawn to this program. I feel like I’m finally ready. It was never a question of whether we had the time or where we were going to fit it in; we both just knew this was exactly what we needed.
I’m excited to see what the next 9 months hold for me and Nick. For our family. For CFC. Stay tuned because I’m sure we’ll be keeping you updated as we head into 2025 and start our own Re:Generation journey.
Have a beautiful week. And know God loves you, sins and all.
We’ll see you in the gym.
With love,
Whitney
