I took this picture the day after our Christmas party for the gym. This year has been…. Challenging, hard, hurtful at times. In reality, it’s been a year of perspective change.
I miss mom terribly. It doesn’t get much easier. It gives you retrospect. You get to look back on life. Remember. Reminisce. With her death also comes change.
What is our life? What’s our purpose? What kind of life have we lived? What kind of life do WE WANT to live? All questions that have come to mind.
I want to live a life worth living. A life worth remembering. A life my mom would be proud of me for. And MOST important, a life GOD would be proud of. If I died today, I wouldn’t feel like I lived a great life. Like I mattered much, like I made much change or left a real legacy.
God came down to this earth for us and completely changed the world. Splitting time in 2…
Talk about a legacy.
If I can help change some very small percentage of people’s life and leave a minuscule legacy of THAT, I will have lived a good life.
I have lived in fear and not done a lot of things I’ve said I have wanted to do. That’s a flaw of mine. Talking. I talk and dream and wonder a lot. I want to change that. This year is about…. Doing!
Doing what I said I’m going to do. Thinking before I talk and walking through with what I’ve said I would. Being better. Doing better. I have a feeling God is going to break me and rebuild me. It’s scary. It’s exciting.
As I sat watching Gabriel look at my mom in the cabinet, thinking about my future and what I want, the “Glare” in the picture made me feel like my mom and God kind of gave me a Wink. Like I was on the right path. Like what I am thinking is the right thing. Like I am meant for more.
So let’s be MORE! Let’s DO, Let’s Grow.
Stay fit, stay safe.
See ya next time.
Nick
