This past year has been a doozy. Nick and I have had to navigate so many new things, all while trying to grieve and raise our family and run a business. There have been so many hard times. But in looking back, there have also been some pretty darn beautiful times.
It’s hard right now as we’re approaching the one year mark of Robin passing. It still seems like it was yesterday, and truthfully, sometimes it still feels like she’s going to walk through the door and tell us it was all a bad joke. If only that were the case, huh?
I had a dream last week that actually happened. We were in Washington DC, which was a little strange, and she was driving us around in a bus. I don’t remember a whole lot of details other than that. Sometimes it’s weird how the brain works. I’d like to think it’s her way of telling us she’s okay.
But I digress.
I look at our family and see growth and beauty in how we’ve managed to be present for our kids, even when it’s hard. I look at CFC and see growth and progress in our members and their PRs and performance.
But I also look at all the things we haven’t been able to get to. The things we’ve wanted to do… that we’ve said we were going to do. And that just fell through the cracks. Or were placed on the back burner.
I don’t like wishing my life away, but sometimes I wish there were more than 24 hours in a day. Because most days, I blink and it’s over. And I often look back wondering where it all went.
We move from one thing to the next, from handling stuff at home to the admin stuff at the gym to the big stuff at the gym, then throw in having new people come in, scheduling foundations, making sure our classes and current members are happy, and it seems never ending.
I have to remind myself we, Nick and I, are imperfect human beings. We can’t be everything to everyone all the time. And we have to ensure we are okay first, then our family, then the gym. And sometimes that’s hard for me.
I want the gym to be the BEST place for everyone to come in, have a great time, hang out, get a great workout, and want to come back the next day and bring all their friends! And we truly try our best for this to be the case.
And for all the things we haven’t gotten to this past year, I have to remind myself of all the things we HAVE done. I love walking in to the main area of the gym and seeing the changes we’ve made. The new rig. Equipment in new, more efficient places. And now the Christmas tree and decorations (I love how it looks with everything up!).
And sometimes, that has to be enough. Things will get done. We’ll make it happen. It just may not be on the arbitrary timeline we’ve set in our heads.
All this to say THANK YOU for continuing to be patient with us as we continue to navigate things. We still haven’t quite found our new “norm” yet. I swear, every week, every day, it’s something new. And we’re doing the best we can.
We appreciate y’all. We love y’all. Be safe this week. And we’ll see you in the gym.
With love,
Whitney
